In Response to Jeremy:

   Because I’m scared to love you. I’m scared to let you in. I’m falling for you sooo fast and its driving me crazy because I don’t know what to do. Its not that I don’t want to love you or care for you, its just that I'm scared to. Scared of the fact that I might hurt you and bc I might hurt myself by getting too involved and then finding out it wasn't meant to be. And then at times I wonder if this is really happening? is it really real that I'm with you and that I care for you this much. Baby I’m only 14, going a little crazy, and loving you soo much that I’m not sure what to do as of right now. Don’t think that I can’t tell you anything, because I can, the thing is that I’m not sure if I want to tell you everything and then find out in the future that you don’t want to be with me. There’s a strict boundary line between me and trusting someone, as a child I was taught never to trust anyone no matter who it is, and when I come across a time when I need or want to trust someone I run away from it.

    And if you’re still asking “why” it’s because you make me happy, no matter how bad of a day I’m having, I can talk to you for 1 minute and all my worries are gone. You make me feel secure and that I have a reason for living on this earth; just so I can be with you. You respect my opinions and deal with all my hardships everyday. You have enough patients for me and my tremendous stubbornness, all my flaws and complications. You make me laugh and you bring a smile to my face every time I see you. You take care for me and make sure that I’m okay. You look out for my best intentions and all my good interests. When I’m with you, you treat me like a queen. Like it’s just you and me in the world and that’s all that matters. I get all warm inside and know that nothing can bring me down from that moment I see you.

    But baby you can yell at me, be pissed all you want, make me cry so hard that I can’t breathe and I’ll still love you. I’m sorry you had to go through all of that and wait soo long, and made you think that I didn’t care for you. I really don’t know what to say to make it up to you except that I’m sorry and that I love you.